I recently met a man who thoroughly enchanted me with his personality. He's incredibly smart, funny, generous, and caring. We've spent time together and found that we have so many things in common and have this great connection—one that is extremely rare. When we get together for chats, they last for hours and I lose track of the time. I always look forward to spending more time with him. My dilemma is that he is overweight, and I am not completely attracted to him. I am on some levels, but I am not sure it would be enough to transition our friendship into a relationship. Part of me really believes that we should keep things as just friends. The other part of me thinks that I'd be crazy not to take things further, but I think if we did, I would just end up hurting his feelings in the end. What should I do?
It's a good sign that you're not asking how to get your new friend to lose weight so you can be attracted to him. Instead, you're struggling with feelings that the seemingly right person for you comes in a package that doesn't match your fantasy. Since you met this man recently, don't force yourself to decide right away. Sure, it's thrilling to find yourself immediately, physically attracted to someone. But we all know that acting on mutual lust is no guarantee that the relationship—and the attraction—won't fizzle out. Just continue to see your friend and marvel at how easily and quickly the time passes when you're with him. Stop worrying that if you take things further, it might not work out. Whenever two people take things further, there's the chance one or both of them could get hurt. As for whether you can ever find yourself attracted to a person who just isn't your physical type, I refer you to Michael Berman's memoir of being fat, Living Large. He describes arriving for a blind date—he weighed almost 300 pounds—and being greeted at the door by a thin woman who took one look at him and declared she had a headache and would be unable to go out. But she was polite enough to invite him in for a quick drink. After an hour of talking flew by, she found her "headache" had cleared up and suggested they continue out to dinner. They've been married 40 years.
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I've been told more than once in my life that doing something good for others is a great way to feel better about one's own life, and so, after a long stretch of un- and underemployment, I decided to give volunteering a try. Rather than feeling rewarded in my efforts, however, I felt overwhelmed and depressed by all the work that needed to be done for the less fortunate, and an uncomfortable feeling of unending obligation to those people I was serving. I am loath to do more volunteering, but my reasons for not doing so feel absolutely selfish and evil. What's wrong with me?
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It's great that you have the time and inclination to volunteer, but look for ways to make a contribution that don't leave you emotionally flayed. There are endless things you could do: transport donations to a food bank, repair playgrounds in poor neighborhoods, help at an animal shelter, etc. Don't beat yourself up because you discovered being with people whose lives are worse than yours didn't make you feel better about your own life. But you also should figure out why your life has been so unsatisfying for so long. Pick up some books in the job development advice section of the bookstore and start taking action on why your career is so stalled. If you went to college, see what resources your alma mater might offer alumni. Also consider seeing a therapist to address some underlying issues. If you feel evil because you didn't like the volunteer activity you chose, it will probably be a worthwhile investment to explore why you are so hard on yourself.