He was talking about the hidden. He had
come from chemo. We sat in the car.
Facing straight ahead,
he looked too tired to turn
and face me.
His friend had driven him
and stopped to chat. “His mind is
pure, his house is a mess;
he’s a pain in the ass,”
she said. “I take him every week.” Rapt,
still facing front in the passenger seat,
a mummy just out of the crypt,
with all the time behind him staring at all
that lay ahead. To see
was not to envy it.
It wasn’t patience, more like practiced
foreboding, which might
bring forth foreseeing the unseeable, which could
not be seen
before it is, he said.
“The beautiful does not exist
somewhere before it is
bidden and made manifest;
it is not waiting to be seen.
It comes from the force of attraction and life-
giving power” ... Then,
I swear, out of nowhere, two deer
come clattering down the street, two mighty, meaty
skidding sparks, at the intersection
stop, and look off: a deer and a doe in El Cerrito,
peering toward San Pablo Avenue, tails
twitching panic in their pause, turn,
and head toward the hills.
TODAY IN SLATE
The Irritating Confidante
John Dickerson on Ben Bradlee’s fascinating relationship with John F. Kennedy.
My Father Invented Social Networking at a Girls’ Reform School in the 1930s
Renée Zellweger’s New Face Is Too Real
Sleater-Kinney Was Once America’s Best Rock Band
Can it be again?
The All The President’s Men Scene That Captured Ben Bradlee
Is It Better to Be a Hero Like Batman?
Or an altruist like Bruce Wayne?
Driving in Circles
The autonomous Google car may never actually happen.