In Revealing Self-Portraits, Body Image Is Front and Center

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April 22 2013 12:08 PM

In Revealing Self-Portraits, Body Image Is Front and Center

4 a.m. 2003 (l) Fantasy No. 1. 2004

Jen Davis

Like a million other college students on spring break, Jen Davis took a picture of herself and her friends while they were hanging out on a beach.

When she returned to school and developed the film, the results caught her off guard.

The image of Davis, titled Pressure Point, shows her larger, covered body seated on a towel while her thinner friends around her wear bikinis.


“I wanted to make a picture to see what that felt like,” Davis said about the moment on the beach. “I was shocked by the ability I had to kind of freeze that moment, to take a mundane but painful moment that was able to be described in the image.”

Pressure Point. 2002

Jen Davis and Lee Marks Fine Art

Recessed. 2003 (l) At 30. 2008

Jen Davis andLee Marks Fine Art (2)

After that, Davis spent roughly a decade photographing herself, using her camera to shape her own sense of beauty and as a way to develop her vision as a photographer.

Much of that work included photographing herself in ordinary situations: eating, relaxing, showering, etc. Her self-portraits also explored a private, fantasy space that were inspired by a sense of longing, though Davis explained that the line between fantasy and reality—especially when using photography as a medium—is easily blurred.

“Some of the images are real genuine feelings, and others are things I wanted to experience, and I used the license of the camera. … I wanted to know what it felt like to be held by someone or to be with a man, and the camera allowed me to have that experience,” Davis explained.

The image 4 a.m. (2003), for example, was inspired by a lonely return home after a night with friends, many of whom were in relationships.

“I came home at 4 a.m. and made that picture at that instance of having that empty, yearning feeling,” she said. Fantasy No. 1 shows a similar experience, though this time with a “fantasy” man present.

While she was working on the images, Davis said she never thought about an audience or what it would be like to show the work. When she eventually did start to show it, some of the images were tough for her to share, but the exposure also allowed her to work through that sense of vulnerability and insecurity.

Untitled. 2003 (l) Pantyhose. 2007

Jen Davis andLee Marks Fine Art (2)

Steve and I. 2006
Steve and I. 2006

Jen Davis and Lee Marks Fine Art

Untitled No. 40. 2011

Jen Davis and Lee Marks Fine Art

“I was able to deal with the emotion and vulnerable state and release it,” she said. But something else happened during the process: She became upset with herself for not changing her body, and showing her work spurred her to take action.

“It was kind of shocking, kind of painful to look at myself and to see myself evolving and growing and understanding a deeper sense of myself but my body not being able to change after nine years’ time. I was shocked and thought ‘why can’t I take control of my life?’ and I realized I didn’t want to wake up at 40 and be in this body—I wanted to know what it would be like to be in a different body, and that was a painful realization,” Davis explained.

Davis decided to have Lap Band surgery and was surprised at how quickly weight started to come off. And although she thought she would be documenting her physical transformation, she was surprised that suddenly she found herself ignoring her camera. She explained:

“I was catching up on the emotional side of [losing weight] and feeling different in the world. … I wanted to experience what dating was, what it felt like in the world and not use a camera to gain access to anything and I didn’t want it to be a distraction for living in the world.”

Davis eventually began dating a man and only recently took out her camera in order to document the experience.

“Now I want to see what this feels like, so I’ve been shooting myself with him a lot,” she began. “I’m just trying to figure it all out now.”  

Untitled. 2013

Jen Davis and Lee Marks Fine Art

Untitled 2013
Untitled. 2013

Jen Davis and Lee Marks Fine Art

David Rosenberg is the editor of Slate’s Behold blog. He has worked as a photo editor for 15 years and is a tennis junkie. Follow him on Twitter.



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