Seattle Seahawks 2014: How a football team brought me and my father together.

How a Football Team Brought Me and My Father Together

How a Football Team Brought Me and My Father Together

The stadium scene.
Jan. 17 2014 4:31 PM

Me, My Father, and Russell Wilson

Why this Seahawks season makes me unspeakably happy.

Quarterback Russell Wilson #3 of the Seattle Seahawks passes against the St. Louis Rams at CenturyLink Field on December 29, 2013 in Seattle, Washington.
Quarterback Russell Wilson of the Seattle Seahawks.

Photo by Otto Greule Jr/Getty Images

A version of this story originally appeared on Mina Kimes’ Tumblr.

I remember when things got weird. I was 15, and my father was teaching me how to drive. We lived in Arizona, where the roads stretch as wide as football fields and everybody calls cars “trucks.” I had inherited a 1995 Dodge Caravan, an ugly green box that smelled like shin guards. It was my second time driving with a permit, so my father was there, needling me every few minutes about the angle of my mirror and the speed at which I braked.

After an hour, I felt confident enough to turn on the radio. We pulled up to an intersection, and my dad told me to make a left turn. As I inched forward, he fiddled with his seatbelt. L.L. Cool J’s “Doin’ It” came on.


I wanna knock your block off, get my rocks off.

The car in front of me turned. I froze, my hands clenching the wheel.

I’m gonna call you Big Daddy and scream your name.

Across the intersection, trucks were still flying toward us. Instead of waiting for a break, I slammed my foot on the accelerator, swerving sharply to the left and forcing the flow of traffic on the other side to screech to a halt. As I burned out of the turn like a getaway driver, my father yelped. His cries, along with the flurry of honks I left in my wake, drowned out the radio. I felt an immense sense of relief.

I’ve never understood why the term Daddy’s Girl has mostly negative connotations. Growing up, I knew I was one, but it meant something different to me: I wanted to be exactly like my dad. My mother was warm and familiar, but my father, a captain in the Air Force, was an object of perpetual fascination. He wore a funny blue hat that looked like an upside-down envelope and carried a fake leather briefcase he had bought in Korea. He read historical fiction, massive paperbacks with one word titles like Lincoln and Alaska. When he returned from business trips, he always brought me miniature bottles of shampoo from the hotels where he stayed, usually Motel 6’s and Howard Johnson’s. I mixed them together and lined them up inside a plastic lunchbox, then sold them back to him as “cologne.”

Like him, I was intense and competitive. He never made me feel bad for being those things. We spent hours studying maps to prepare for geography bees, and he clipped articles from Newsweek for me. I started playing soccer when I was 5, and he drove me to every game. Whenever I got the ball, he ran parallel to me on the sideline, whooping with joy; when I inevitably lost control and started dribbling in a circle, he would awkwardly jog in place.

A few years later, I came home in tears one afternoon after a nasty coach yelled at me and my teammates. Later that evening, I crouched outside his study room and listened to him rip into the guy, screaming four letter words paired in combinations I had never heard before. It was terrifying, but also thrilling.  

Every car ride alone with my father was a stolen moment. He taught me the capital of every country in the world, and I recited them back to him. He knew the names of my friends and enemies. When I refused to get out bed one morning, distraught because I had read a book about how poorly the white settlers had treated the Native Americans, he pulled up a chair and asked me what was wrong. I teared up and he gingerly held my hand. As I prattled on about smallpox blankets and circled wagons and Iroquois longhouses, he listened patiently, only dozing off once or twice.

At some point, this changed. By which I mean, I changed. I became more self-aware. I no longer believed that everything I said was interesting to him, or anyone, really. My fears and dreams were embarrassing and inexpressible. I wrote LiveJournal entries and erased them. I started driving. I spent my weekends sitting inside malls and outside movie theaters, waiting for things to happen.

Near the end of high school, I stopped playing soccer and accumulated a light layer of baby fat—tiny curves that protruded over the sides of my low-rise jeans like a pair of quotation marks. I spent hours in the bathroom, alternating between talking in hushed tones on the phone and thumbing through Delia’s catalogs as tears streamed down my cheeks. Sometimes I could hear my father pacing outside.

One day, he dared to knock, and I nudged the door open with my big toe. He asked me what was wrong. “This,” I barked, poking my own belly.

He flinched, confused. A few seconds passed. “Do you want me to buy you new clothes? Something that fits better?” I kicked the door shut.

We still talked, of course, but only about certain things. When it was time for me to start thinking about college, he unveiled a 50-point plan he had been working on for years. He built a file cabinet to organize my resumes and essays. Over spaghetti dinners, we strategized, debating rhetoric and paper weight and early-decision game theory. He came up with the idea of having me take my picture in front of an American flag because it would “go nicely” with a scholarship application about growing up in a military family. That picture lives on the Internet and haunts me to this day.

After I got into college, we talked about internships. After I got an internship, we talked about jobs. After I got my first job in New York, he still called me every day after work, while he was driving. As I walked back to my apartment, we’d talk about the news, the weather, and his back, which was just starting to give him trouble. After a few minutes or so, we’d run out of things to talk about. The pauses in our conversations would swell until there was more silence than noise. Eventually, I would just tell him I was home.

* * *

Growing up, I always liked watching sports more than I did playing them. We moved all the time, criss-crossing the country in the Caravan whenever my father was reassigned. As a result, my only geographic allegiance was his hometown—Seattle. I liked the Supersonics, mostly because I loved the color green. I saw the M’s play half a dozen times at the old Kingdome. At my very first baseball game, my favorite player, Edgar Martinez, hit a grand slam. As Gar lumbered around the bases—he always ran like he was late for a train he expected to miss—fireworks erupted over Seattle. Every few minutes, I’d crack a peanut, de-shell it, and plunk it into my father’s outstretched hand.

My dad liked baseball. But he loved football. When I was small, I watched Seahawks games with him, sprawled on the carpet near his feet. I absorbed his opinions and learned to worship his idols: Largent, Kennedy, Jones. He taught me how to complain about bad calls—unless someone in the room is genuinely worried that you’re having a seizure, you’re doing it wrong—and what to cheer for. Like most men of a certain age, my father is less impressed by flashy runs and diving catches than he is by players who fight for every last inch—those scrappy warriors who lunge across the first down line even as their ankles are dragged backward. “What an effort!” he’d cry. “What. An. Effort.”