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Why I Left Tehran

With everything else they have to deal with, I didn't want my Iranian friends to worry about me.

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Imam Khomeini Airport. Click image to expand.
Imam Khomeini Airport

DUBAI, United Arab Emirates—The chorus of people telling me I should leave Iran started up shortly after June 14, when Slate published this piece about the first day of postelection riots. A week later, it had grown to a noisy, untuned symphony of well-intentioned worriers. It started with people I didn't know, then they were joined by friends of my mother's, then their friends, until finally, on Sunday morning, I got a call from my dad.

For several days I'd been trying—without any luck—to make a phone call to the United States. Keeping my family informed about my safety was an annoying priority. Short e-mails were best. Not going into much detail cut off the potential for people to chime in with their opinions about what my next move should be.

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When the phone woke me around a quarter to 8 on Sunday, I wasn't sure who to expect. I hadn't gotten many calls in recent days as people were avoiding the lines they believed to be monitored (including mine). Some of the calls I did get were bizarre requests to appear for questioning from agencies I'd never heard of before. Simply put, the phone was no longer my friend.

When I answered Sunday morning, though, it was my dad coming through crystal clear.

"How are you, Baba?"

"I'm fine, Dad," I mumbled, probably sounding exhausted.

"Well, I've been a little worried. Seems like last night was busy. We've been seeing a lot of disturbing things on TV. I'm glad you're OK. Think about taking a trip for a few days."

My father is not a subtle man, but when it comes to giving his sons advice, he realized long ago that soft, diplomatic suggestions are the only kind that work. After a week of ignoring frantic "your mother loves you so much; please don't put her through this any longer" calls from people I'd never met, for the first time I considered leaving Iran.

I had already been told by the authorities that I could no longer do any reporting from Iran, but I decided to stick around because I had watched this entire election season, and, like the rest of the world, I desperately wanted to see what would happen next. But being reduced to a voyeur was stifling.

I had watched public sentiment go from one of apathy a few weeks before the election to the point at which many people felt they had been robbed.

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Jason Rezaian is a freelance journalist based in Tehran.

Photograph of Imam Khomeini Airport by Henghameh Fahimi/AFP/Getty Images.