How Elizabeth Edwards showed us the distortions of illness and grief.

A study of bereavement.
Dec. 8 2010 11:29 AM

Elizabeth's Legacy

It wasn't her political career but the window she gave us into the reality—and illusions—of dying.

Elizabeth Edwards. Click image to expand.
Elizabeth Edwards

In 2006, after my mother was diagnosed with stage IV colorectal cancer at the age of 52, I felt a weird connection to Elizabeth Edwards. In some ways she reminded of my mom. They looked a little alike, they seemed to share a kind of pragmatic idealism and the gift of natural authority, and they both had advanced cancer in their 50s. So I felt warmly toward Edwards, and I rooted for her in her struggle, and I defended her when friends thought she was foolish to go on the campaign trail while ill. She should be at home with the kids, they said. Why? I wondered. The strange truth of cancer is that it both doesn't transform you and does; it lifts you up, but it cannot make every moment holy, or perfected, or ideal. My mother chose to keep running a school, though it arguably might have been "better" for her health if she hadn't. So who were any of us to say that Edwards shouldn't devote her time to helping her husband become president? What did we know of the strange internal transactions that the ticking timer might produce?

Of course, I was hardly alone in my attachment to Edwards. One of the most distinctive things about her wasn't just how much she suffered and survived—in addition to her cancer, she witnessed both the death of her son, Wade, in 1996, and of course her husband's infidelity with Rielle Hunter—but how much of this suffering took place in public, where every move was analyzed and judged. Despite all this Edwards frequently acquitted herself with an aplomb and equanimity that led Arianna Huffington to speak of Edwards' having "suffered multiple setbacks with so much grace" on CNN's Parker Spitzer Tuesday night. Inarguably, Edwards did have what my colleague Hanna Rosin called an "ability to seem, in the same moment, invincible and also vulnerable and exposed" that appealed to many people, especially women.


But defending Edwards' choice to soldier on in politics got a lot more complicated when it became clear that she'd known of her husband's affair and yet continued to campaign for him. Women who had lionized her were crestfallen to find that she had believed (or that she'd pretended to believe) the affair was a mere one-night stand. Who was this credulous Elizabeth? Where had the straight-talking pragmatist gone? The revelation, as Rebecca Traister put it when Edwards appeared on Oprah in 2009 and let it be known that her husband had persuaded her he should stay in the race, was "crushing to anyone with an idealized view of Elizabeth Edwards."

Even so, it is tempting, given that she lived with cancer for six years, to speak only about her battles, her courage. But Susan Sontag argued many years ago against making illness into a metaphor. We might say the same thing about making death into a vehicle for redemption. Edwards certainly was brave. But her life in the public eye dramatically embodied the complexities of living with disease—complexities many of us may someday face. Edwards clearly wanted to continue with regular life—and yet her life wasn't quite regular. And the tension between those two things created an opening for a kind of compromise it is all too tempting to make when you are facing death and your husband has a chance at greatness: You persuade yourself that the affair he had might not mean he must stop running for president.

What sometimes gets lost in both the "grace" rhetoric and the rhetoric of crushed idealizations is the real person, the fact that someone with cancer is neither merely "battling" it nor being "brave" but actually living with it. Such a life may ache for normalcy but also involve colossally painful choices and outcomes. People in pain and grief often allow themselves for a moment to hope against hope that their fantasy of transformation, of escape, of healing might become reality. They think that perhaps if escape from illness isn't possible, then some good luck is; that while they might die, their husband might become president. Elisabeth Kübler-Ross first coined her five stages of grief ("denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance") to describe the emotions that the dying experience upon learning of their fate; whatever the problems with stage theory, it's fair to surmise that Elizabeth was bargaining when she chose to plunge forward with John. (Come to think of it, these stages might as accurately apply to discovering a husband's infidelity.)

While people may want to live "normally" with loss—Elizabeth Edwards went shopping and bought a red blazer right after she found the "pretty big" lump in her breast; my mother and I went to pick out several new outfits for her two weeks before she died—the truth is that illness is distorting. However many red blazers you buy, the presence of disease causes a profound tension that can't be fully ignored by the ill person or her family. Psychiatrists call this "anticipatory grief," and it can be as powerfully painful as what we think of as normal grief, the anguish that follows a person's death. Doctors have found that divorce risk is higher in marriages where wives are ill than those where they are healthy.

Because our culture is deeply uncomfortable with the reality of death—we want to find the upside in loss, the cheerfulness in tragedy—it is precisely the crack in the "idealized" Elizabeth that is to me most interesting and noteworthy in memorializing her. As it turns out, the reality of living with cancer is at once more awful and more normal than most of us can imagine before watching it firsthand, and if Edwards' political legacy is tarnished, a more enduring legacy may be the way she embodied the paradox of dying both in her life and her writing. Edwards wrote about the banal reality of disease in Saving Graces, her memoir about "finding solace and strength" with strangers while living with cancer. The book opens with the discovery of her tumor, the money shot of any illness memoir:


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