1-A, 1968

1-A, 1968

1-A, 1968

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April 24 1997 3:30 AM

1-A, 1968

1-A, 1968

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I threw myself down the corridor
to fracture my skull or separate my shoulder--
to get out of the Army, but I was a coward.

To conscript the body of the boy,
I had to nurse the dying
and woo the nervous girl I was who cried.

I was of two hundred thousand minds,
one wavering one wanted to outlive
the Asian rain and wind

where the grasses were bent
by the rotors and I saw myself borne
on a stretcher with my organs.

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Another mind wanted to die
for a body other than this specimen
I was, the body of the becoming one,

woman not yet beloved. If only
I could dent the dry wall
by running down the carpeted hall

of the apartment and show the draft board
the courage of my fear. Judge
and jury. I just wanted to be loved

or senseless, I could not not miss
myself, the yellow wall was my politics
and the pitch of my childhood's wish.

I ran as fast as I could, but I could not run
fast carrying the man I was like a pillow
so that I might suffocate my shadow.