The Unquiet American
The mysteries of Guy Waterman's suicide.
If you started a book (or finished one) just prior to the war, pick it up now. You very well might see it through different eyes.
The book that proved this to me was Chip Brown's Good Morning Midnight, the story of Guy Waterman, a former political and corporate speechwriter turned dean of the homesteading movement in rural Vermont. On Feb. 6, 2000, Waterman, who was 67, marched up his favorite trail in New Hampshire and deliberately froze to death. Brown begins his book with a scene of Waterman's friends heading out to retrieve his body, and the search occasions a look back at his life. But Good Morning Midnight isn't a biography; it's an investigation. Not a whodunit, but a whydunit.
Solving this mystery is no easy task, but Brown is helped by Waterman's own compulsively detailed records (he kept tabs on every blueberry he picked for nearly 20 years), his exceptional deliberateness (a friend called him "the most intentional person I've ever known"), and the openness of his widow, Laura. Like Jon Krakauer's Into the Wild, which was also the story of a man who froze to death in the wilderness, Good Morning Midnight benefits greatly from the author's empathy—and occasionally suffers from it, too. Brown's searching reflections on Waterman's psychology—including entire paragraphs of rhetorical questions—can be distracting. (In the acknowledgements, Brown credits his own father, who read a draft of the book, with editing down his son's "sonorous twaddle.")
Born May 1, 1932, Guy Waterman was the baby of the family, the fifth child of accomplished parents, including a father—known to his kids as "Hawee"—who helped found and run the National Science Foundation. Brown persuasively attributes Guy's rebellious streak to his desire to rival, at least in originality, his father's achievements.
"Little Guy" did not lack for talent: He played jazz piano in clubs while still a teenager, memorized long passages of Milton, and, after marrying his first love, Emily Morrison, found success as a speechwriter. He wrote for junior Republican senators, including Richard Nixon, and, later, for executives at General Electric. Nevertheless, he was unhappy, drank heavily, and grew miserable. He and Emily stayed together only for the sake of their three sons.
In 1963, though, Waterman's fortunes turned. After reading a series of articles in Sports Illustrated detailing a harrowing ascent of the Eiger, a mountain in the Swiss Alps, Waterman was inspired to try climbing himself. He weaned himself off whiskey. Before long, he became an accomplished climber and instructor in New York's Shawagunk and Adirondack ranges and New Hampshire's White Mountains.
While Waterman's time in the mountains helped him regain his health, it didn't save his marriage. He divorced, and a few years later, he started a new life with a fellow climber named Laura Johnson. They married, bought some land near East Corinth, Vt., and built a farm for themselves. In July 1973, they moved off the grid to a one-room cabin with an outhouse, a shed for firewood, and a vegetable garden. For heat, they relied on a wood-burning stove; for light, oil lamps. The couple grew their own food, survived harsh winters, and went on to write two well-received histories of hiking and climbing in New England, Forest and Crag and Yankee Rock & Ice, as well as two essential paperbacks for hiker-environmentalists, Backwood Ethics and Wilderness Ethics.
The Watermans lived on their farm until Guy's death. Before he died, he arranged for Laura, who knew of his suicidal intentions, to move to a new house. Brown notes that "one of [Laura's] more probing friends would bluntly say to me later, that the heart of the matter was a stark bargain struck by a wife who had traded silence and consent ... for the quid pro quo of a house."
Brown does a masterful job unearthing the roots of Waterman's suicide—his "sad cure." He illuminates the bushwhacker's hidden bouts of depression, his isolating commitment to self-reliance, his unforgiving sense of individual accountability, and foremost his sorrow over the loss of two of his sons. He'd moved to Vermont when his boys were barely out of high school and didn't see much of them afterward. The two oldest, whom he'd taught to climb, disappeared on separate occasions in the Alaskan wilderness. Both were still in their 20s. Guilt-ridden as well as heartbroken, Waterman nevertheless refused help and seems to have determined to make his sons' fate his own.
Initially, I'd read Good Morning Midnight to understand a man's undoing. Returning to it after the war started in Iraq, however, made me realize how troubled I'd become about what America stands for. The second time through, I read in the hopes that Guy Waterman might restore some faith in my countrymen. In a strange way—and despite his suicide—he did.
Brad Wieners is a columnist for Business 2.0 and correspondent to Outside. He lives in New York.


